abt me dad ^$^
Sometimes when I look at my dad my thoughts go wild…I wonder what’s going on in his head…I know being a single parent isn’t easy for him, especially when its us monsters being his kids…lol ^@^…
His silence has always been a mystery to me…I guess loneliness has been his friend for ages…poor poor dad…why does adult like to ‘act cool’ even though they are in trouble or feeling not ok??? Wheneva he faces problems he never NEVER tell…how would we know if he just kept his mouth shut??? Guess he felt safe being in his own world har…
I have always respected him…even though sometimes he simply wont allow me to dance or try to control my freedom…he has always been and will be my idol 4eva…even though he made lots of mistakes did a lot of bad bad things had a lot of bad habits….he is always my super dad ^+^
Under his serious mask I know deep down inside he is some1 cool and funny…saw him treating his patients sometimes ago…he was a total different person from what I observe at home…patients love him…my siblings are scared of him…patients talk about rubbish with him…my siblings avoid him like a plague…haiz…
Never mind…things are changing now…I can see dad’s effort to become an ideal ‘dad’ at home…yet sometimes he is still a nuisance…just like a kid…haha…hope his effort pays off in the end…hope my siblings will try to be more and more closer to him someday…and also me…sad to say that I still cant open up my heart to him now…sometimes I really envy those who are close with their dad…its so hard…so difficult to take the 1st step…dun worry guys…I m still trying….give me time please…
Anyway since he was raised up in kampong his thinking is somehow “old-fashioned”…maybe that’s the gap between us…he doesn’t like technology…hates computer like how I hate
taiwan ’s drama…lol!! He always says how lucky we are, how enjoying our lives are right now compared to his childhood…yet I don’t think so….look at how stress my bro are now…he is only just a primary school student…everyday loaded with homework…exam…tests…haiz…kesian him…cant even enjoy a pleasant evening outdoor…
I have no idea why suddenly I m so into this topic today…anyway I just wanna say that I love my dad…no matter what happen no matter how bad he is…haha…even though he cant see what I m writing now I know he will feel my love towards him someday…and we will stay connected…lol!!! gambateh my dear daddy!!!
