stupid nonsense…
Whenever I m alone, I love to listen to old songs…not oldies but songs that I used to enjoy some times ago…they help refresh my memories…memories I’ve long try to delete from my system yet still hidden well deep in my heart…
I could still remember how noisy, how “re nao” my home would be in the evening…when everybody is back from school…I would on the radio the moment I reach home…hehe^*^…then we would tease each other, talk about school, friends, teachers, silly things, gossips…mum would smile while listening to our nonsense and ‘manja’…
Yet things change when we grow up (that’s what people often say)…as much as I want things to stay that way, I couldn’t help it…mum no longer live with us…one of my sis went to KTAR to further her studies…away from home…3 of my other siblings take up tuition as many as they can…somehow avoid to be at home…this home doesn’t even feel like a ‘warm HOME SWEET HOME’ anymore…no more…haiz…
Oh…how I envy others’ family…but I know, I totally understand that every family would encounter problems of their own…so I never complain…I just felt…HELPLESS…we could be a very VERY happy family you know…if everyone could just try, could just be a bit more considerate…that’s all I’ve been asking them to do…yet…adults are difficult to understand…I never know what or how the hell their minds work…all I could do is just respect, accept their choices and move on with life…
I pity my sis and bro…I love them more than anything else…but I couldn’t protect them from getting hurt…being the eldest is never easy…I felt sorry to them for not being able to give them everything…especially the feeling of a ‘whole’ family’s love and cares…sometimes I hope, I pray ENDLESSLY that mum and dad would just forget everything and get back together…yet I know that’s simply impossible…dun ask why, people…it has been a disastrous marriage I guess…and we can do NOTHING about it…haiz….HAIZ………..
[ Dear bro and sis…I am so sorry to say that soon ‘da jie’ will be leaving ‘home’…life in university should be quite hectic I assume?? But I promise I’ll come back as often as I can (that’s a promise you can count on man)…would you all miss me??? Hmm…I’m sure I WOULD…guess I’ll cry every night, missing you all, taking you all into my dreams…haha^+^…
I couldn’t help with the housechores and cook for you all like usual anymore…so you must learn to be more independent ya…skipping meals is bad…so don’t ever try that…leaving the house in a mess is something I don’t want to see everytime I come back…so dun let me down k?
Do remember this—ying, wei, yuan…you all are my EVERYTHING…do take good care of yourselves and be strong be tough…muacks!!! ]
Hmm…I wonder if they would be able to see this stupid nonsense…muahaha ^@^
WAKAKA…^#^ (trying to ease the tension here)…HAHA….HEHE…
Dun worry guys…I’m cool @_@
