be happy always ^@^

为什么世间的事情都在变。。。已经适应的环境已经适应的友情。。。还来不及享受什么它们又变了都走了都消失了。。。人家都说‘这会使你变得坚强变得更能应付任何挫折。。。’是吗？真的是这样吗？我多么希望是这样的。。。

也许不回头看不去回忆什么就不会那么痛苦吧？不去翻阅充满欢乐的相簿，不去曾经是‘老地方’的mamak档喝茶，不听不唱曾经一起哼过K过的歌，不看曾经一起追过的偶像剧。。。这些会是最好的解决方案吗？我想不可能吧。。。

一再改变的家庭。。。我已累了。。。多么希望渴望事情会回到像从前那样。。。错。。。也许从来就没有什么‘从前’可以憧憬。。。也许一路以来事情都是这样的，只是我现在才看清现在才了解。。。笨啊！多么愚蠢！！

我们应该向前看。。。我们应该开心过生活。。。我们应该好好珍惜眼前所拥有的一切。。。我们应该考好好的成绩，将来才能成就大事业。。。我们应该这样，我们应该那样。。。啊！闭嘴！通通都给我安静！我不想再听了。。。不管了不管了。。。

事实往往是残酷的。。。唯有保护好自己，不断锻炼自己，不断告诉自己不准哭不准哭，不断让自己更坚强，更勇敢，更无情。。。这样才能生存下来吧，这样才不会那么痛苦那么无奈那么懦弱吧。。。无情–绝对可以保护自己。。。这样已经伤透的心伤痕累累的心才不会再那么痛。。。

嗯。。。哈。。。呵。。。没事啦没事啦。。。写爽罢了嘛。。。别吓坏了。。。

要笑看人生哦！笑一笑，没什么大不了。。。easy, easy…yeah~~~

my pro is around 2 weeks away and i m still relaxing…what on earth am i doing??? well…i guess i am not that kinda A student huh?!?! who strive really REALLY hard to get A…haha…my frens back home wil sure hit me for making such a statement…wakaka!!!

anyway, studying back home is not bad also…but stil there are alot of distractions…yet seeing them at home really gave me alot of reassurance and comfort and of course encouragement to kept striving so that i will get into 2nd year next sem…yoyo!!! ah bu gan!!!^_@

sun–wat a day!!! to be able to go out with my whole family isnt something easy people…yet its not impossible also cheer to god for blessing us with a chance to actually go to melaka as a complete family, and i mean with DAD and MUM and all of us…but of course sadly wen wen cant make it since her final exam is coming up this week…kesian her @_T…

speaking of exam…i m preparing to DIE la this time…haiz…really dunno how eh…brain capacity really limited…how eh how eh…&_*

anyway dad has been talking quite alot with me this time when i m home….makes me wonder-has he given up talking to my siblings when i wasnt around?? or nobody really want to listen to him??? haiz…they really deserve some scolding for isolating dad…i will keep that in mind:)

actually thats one of the benefits of me going home-to clear up some of dad loneliness…to help with sending sis n bro to tuition or anywhere…to help with getting their meals on time…its kinda sad also to see him having generation gap with them at home…all we need to do is just listen ma…spare some time for him…chat with him…hope they will come to realize this soon…pray…

and now, being back here in usmkk campus really suck…haha!!! weather suck…food terrible…environment bluek…entertainment 0…everything really cant compare with home de la…but i have no choice but to stay here for my last 2 weeks of revision weeks…or else even ying ying will want to scold me liao-"da jie ar…cant ponteng ar…cant be lazy ar…must show good example to us de ma…" really kikdao!!! nvm…da jie will do her best here…so i really hope u guys back home be hardworking abit can??? staying at home for the past few days really break my heart watching you guys doing nothing except on9, watch tv, sleeping, cutting magazines, going for tuition…no need to study de eh?!?! wei-PMR coming lo…ying-SPM very tough de eh…yuan-want to drop to class B ar?!?! hit u…

anyway tk…and best of luck to dajie pro exam lo…must pass MUST PASS!!! yoyo…