am i THAT busy??? i dunno also~~
hmm…after my raya holiday all the workload seem to just POUR down on me…actually wat workload am i referring to??? it seems endless….looks like i really have alot of work to do…but AM I REALLY THAT BUSY??? i doubt that…
i have been making excuses as usual…dont want to go anywhere but just to stay in my room my only shelter in USMKK…what i hate about myself the most is i never really want to go to HIM in times like this…thinking that ok la, this is small matter ma i sure can handle one…that ar…ok lo, no problem one…and it kept on going like this till i cant really stand myself anymore…argh…
i dont remember the joy of studying…the fun of going for activities i once love…i dont remember how to smile from my heart no more…what is happening to me??? i am becoming more and more ‘fake’…so ‘jia’ wil be the most suitable description of me now…ouch….it hurts…..
change??? i should change….maybe this is the one and ONLY advise u guys can give…but…to make changes is never easy…”no time lah” is always the excuse i give…thats true sometimes….but sometimes its just an excuse to make you guys go away…oops…sorry….
u all know my pattern la…once tension once stress i wil go home…haha…and i assure u all that THIS WILL HAPPEN….i will find time to go back home again even though it means skpping class…it doesnt matter anymore…
