be happy always ^@^

haiz…stupid brainless ppl…how can they do such things to us…this is just so unfair…when can they learn?? how can they be our future doctors?? irresponsible!!

its already terrible to be in the same group with a guy who cant stop complaining about everything…and never stop critisizing…will good words ever come out of his mouth?? frus~~ please la…just be nice once in awhile la…

we are a team…why cant we work as one?? why is it so difficult to attend meetings on time?? why cant you all complete the tasks given?? why is there endless excuses coming from your mouth?? why is there ignorance as though this doesnt concern you?? when will you wake up and realise that we have to pass cfcs to be able to sit for our pro exam?? why….aiks~~

yet…i still thank god for other team mates who are able to help out and do extra work…i really thank god for a responsible leader and willing to sacrifice teammates…even though we are doing extra thinking and work we learn more through these…i will appreciate this wonderful experience and remember it forever ^^

haha…it came true…session after session of physio is waiting for me…the 1st will start next sunday…neck traction…i wonder will i become a giraffe before all the pain goes off?? nah~~ i dont even think the pain will go off…hmm…

to get full cooperation in a group is never easy…late-comers, snake king and queen, non-stop chit-chatting, never willing to learn…the worst is finding volunteers to do anything…its really frustrating sometime to think that we are the only ones who work hard in this group…yet, we learn something in the end, didnt we?? thats enough already, aint it?? i just pray that whatever you all do, just be clear about what will be presented to the doctors before kena shoot teruk teruk…i beg you all please~~

i am almost done with my drama-boys over flower…those scenes…will only happen in our dreams or comics…money is like nothing to them…and how tall and how pretty can they get??? omg~~ so fairy tales…

i miss home…my black shoes ‘open imouth’ already…aiks~~ i want to go home~~

its tiring….discomforting….yet its something that i have to endure every month…cant stop myself from being moody…sometimes even depression…cry…this is so weak…SO WEAK~~

another sign of getting old has appeared…back pain…on and off…sometimes cant bend beyond 30 degree…what is wrong with me…and even my big toe is telling me “something is not right with my bone…” i just hope that those ortho specialists in USMKK will be able to find out the root of my problem and tackle it asap….no matter what it takes i will make myself stronger again…no matter what it takes…i can see session after session of physiotherapy ahead of me…hope its just my imagination…

numbness….am i imagining them or are they signs?? i wouldnt dare to think about it…nah…nothing ‘that bad’ is gonna happen to me…no way…

i am still very into dancing…i simply want to dance till i cant dance anymore…i miss those days where i strive to get my piroutte correct, my points to go further if possible, my focus to be even more precise, my movements to be more graceful than ever…i want people to know me on stage…I WANT TO DANCE!!! yet…studying medic simply doesnt allow it…doesnt…

didnt have a fantastic day today…thought my lunch outside would be great…yet it turned out to be…hmm…how to say…unpleasant…its ok…

i really really pray that my cervical problem will come to an end soon…i really cant stand it anymore…its so excrutiatingly painful omg…nothing…NOTHING can relieve the pain…and its getting worse…papa, papa…please let my doctor my prof knows whats wrong with me…amen~

Do everything without complaining or arguing (Philippians 2:14)

“…Who are we? You are not grumbling against us, but against the Lord.” (Exodus 16:8)

Hmmm…do forgive me…for I have been fussing about so many things without realizing what had been given to me…what I am blessed with ^^

I thank god for sending more brothers and sisters to our church at KB…I hope everybody will get closer to each other and strive hard together to serve our Lord J

It had been a relaxing week…stress free…gave me a wonderful chance to cope with the fact that my holidays had ended by watching tons and tons of movies

Lastly I really really hope that our presentation for CFCS next week to our supervisor wont kena shoot teruk teruk la…so scared…plus not all pbl mates are cooperating…kinda worrying…hope at least get a conclusion and settle with our questionnaire…gambate ^^

seeing her (roommate) snoring away so peacefully makes me miss my sis so much…having supper everyday has become a part of my life…now now…i know its bad for health and FATTENING yet wat choice do i have to stay awake??? coffee??? nah…its much more worse i think…nvm…

ask my friend to buy me a mirror since i dont have one in my room and WOW…i have grown some ‘meat’ on my face…haha ^^ oh gosh~~ emergency emergency!! haha~~

to my coursemates out there who didnt really get the results they wanted…cheer up k?? i know everybody worked hard for our past selanjar but…just enjoy your life to the fullest ^^ and stay happy ya
 

everyday i watch drama after drama…movies after movies…entertainment shows one after another…is that how i should spend my time here?? am i wasting my time?? i just dunno…i just want to go home…huhu~~

nobody really like to live away from their comfort zone…today is my 4th day at kelantan and again i had missed home so much i feel like cabut-ing home RIGHT NOW!!

hmm…maybe partly because of my great holidays spent relaxing till i also dunno how to spell “suffer” already…haha…here are all the complaints that i have been saving up in my “hard-disc”…guess its time to let them out ^^

weather here is kinda hot…i dont really like my new roommate…she doesnt agree in switching room with my old roommate….so nvm…boring classes everyday…feeling sleepy everyday…homesick…which is the most serious of all…wakaka…

i guess i need to settle down mentally NOW so that the urge to go home can be eliminated before i really take an action about it…haha…gud luc to me…and its time for nap…nite nite~~